This has been a stressful time.
As in the whole year.
And it is easy for me to get caught right up in the stress.
In some ways, it is like being under a fog.
When times are like this, it is difficult to look out beyond my own circumstances. My own worries. My own concerns.
I want to, but I can't.
about a week ago, I realized that I was letting myself worry too much.
(I know, any worry is probably too much) I also realized (though I
knew this before but had forgotten :) that I was worrying about many
things I had no control over. Obviously if I had any control over them,
I would have gotten them UNDER control so I wouldn't worry about them.
And slowly the fog lifted.
I can't say that life got easier.
School has a lot of pressures right now as we implement new curriculum and have new standards to meet (as teachers).
We are still struggling with how to best help our kids be the best people they can be.
We are running all over in the afternoons and evenings so kids can do their activities.
struggle to find time together as a couple (though we often manage to
squeeze in a few minutes here and there; if anything, we have a
spontaneous sushi night together or run to the grocery store when time
I am having to learn that I just can't please all
people as much as I would like to. I also have to accept that some
people won't please me either as much as I would like them to.
I am not getting to hike like I would like. :(
I feel like I am failing at the blogging world. Every. Single. Day.
Some friends and family are dealing with tough stuff too...much tougher than anything I am dealing with.
even with these difficulties, the fog is lifting. I can focus my eyes
on the Sun again, remembering that God is in control. (I say that to my
children often...why is it so hard for me to believe?) I can see the
beautiful colors that are emerging around us as autumn unfolds in our
area. I can treasure the sweet moments with our children even if they
are sometimes overshadowed by the struggles. And I can know that even
in the struggles of school, I am there for a reason and a purpose...that
has never changed.