I posted on Facebook tonight that sometimes I wish I could turn back time to be a little girl, curled up in my mom's lap. Then she could pat my back and tell me everything will be all right,
In the grand scheme of life, things WILL be all right. However, some days, they won't. And today they aren't.
I have probably mentioned a few times or two that our "life verse" is Proverbs 3:5-6.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths."
I love those verses, take comfort in them, find a peace in knowing that HE will direct my paths. I just have to trust.
The part I have trouble with is the "lean not on your own understanding". That part sounds so easy. It isn't.
I am a human. And it is not my nature, human nature, to just trust and not lean on my own understanding. We are curious souls. We want answers. We want to understand.
Sometimes though we don't.
And at those moments, my knees feel weak. Tears flow easily. And my heart wonders "why?"
What can I do?
Pray. Trust. And Lean. Not on my own understanding but on Him.
That is where I am today. It has been a hard day. When friends hurt, so do you.
I can't go into any details at this point. But I will ask that you pray. Pray for those who are trusting and leaning not.
I am too big and too heavy to curl up in my momma's lap. She wouldn't walk for weeks if I did. But thankfully I am never too big or too heavy to curl up in His lap. And hopefully soon He will pat my back and tell me that things will be okay.